Undifferentiated consciousness in the form of ultimate nature is completely steady. If we look into the lake and it is completely steady its true nature is transparent and reflective. I will do my best to do the same here, if we are but still for a moment.
What is human consciousness? The ability for the cog to identify its position in the wheel. If one of your blood cells were to suddenly become conscious, would it object to it’s programmed cell death known by its scientific name - apoptosis?
We are the wave, our emotions, our ups and downs. But the wave cannot exist without the ocean. They are inseparable and in turn indistinguishable from one another.
I can’t give answers or solve problems for anyone other than myself. However, I can point at it. Then we can do the work together to reverse engineer what we have seen and find our own solutions. Math has so many different ways of reaching the same conclusion. When I was on the fire department and was told “I’m not going to give you the answer” I thought they were being gatekeepers. Perhaps. Due to the constraints of our language, the waters remained and still to this day remain often muddy. I wasn’t asking how to do it. I was asking them what it looked like.
DMT fundamentally shifted my perception of reality, and to bemore specific, my perception of how I receive information. How I take a room in. Sometimes it’s hard for me to remember how I saw things before. But what I can distinctly remember is that when I took DMT, I could see everything all at once. I couldn’t articulate it at the time and years later I am still working to reverse engineer what I saw. But this had an equally palpable relationship with the way I experience day-to-day reality. And that’s how I understand what is often diagnosed as ADHD to be explained sometimes. All the stimuli coming in all at once. The difference is that it’s not as often overwhelming in the sense that it induces anxiety and consumes my ability to proceed in unchanging circumstances.
There are other practices that achieve this. It’s different, but it all points to the same thing. Some can be scary like a seizure or losing consciousness, known also as a syncopal episode. Others - such a medication and yoga - more gentle. They suggest to me that, just as there are many ways to skin a cat (as the idom goes), these realms of consciousness were available to most, if not all at one point in time and remain available through the various practices that draw us closer to what we can call the source.
A binding experience that could be scary, or could be something else perhaps: when I broke through on DMT, I was convinced that I died. I was sucked from my body existing in some space between this world and others, layered on one another so as to be omnipresent in subjective reality. Only I was no longer the subject. Not my body at least. My consciousness was there yet elsewhere. The Upside-Down. When I experienced a syncopal episode some years later, I returned to the place whence I came. Consciousness is not bound to the mind, for this I am certain. I’ve been witness to and heard from seizure patients who have reported experiences so similar it raises the hairs on my arm to consider its correlations.
The world is not as it seems upon first glance.